I think I know what I’m looking for

See that? Raw energy.

After arguing with my brother about sex and relationships and later┬álistening to ‘Old Wounds, New Scars‘ by thrash metal band Overkill, I’ve gained some awareness of what I value. I value and seek something raw, emotional, spiritual, carnal, and primal. It’s a kind of ecstasy and wilderness I am seeking.

It’s energy. I want to experience rawness and energy and the primal. That’s what I value, or part of it. With that in mind, I am still questing, thirsting, hungering for that primal rawness and energy and the experience thereof, thirsting for power.